An open letter to little man....

Dear Nolan-

Get out. Get out now. I'm over 37 weeks now...that is considered full term. I have a very short torso and I can't take it anymore. I cannot live like this for 3 more weeks and I don't want to be induced. My doctor said that at like 38/39 weeks she would strip my membranes. I don't want to do that. I heard it hurts REALLY bad. The internal exams already hurt bad enough.

Pretty much everything is ready for you out here. Your dad and I want to meet you very badly. We really want to see what you look like!

Please little man.....come on out. I want to hold you :)

Love,
Mommy


I lost my mucus plug yesterday. I know, I know. That could mean labor is hours away-or weeks away. How fun. I have been having a decent amount of contractions for a couple weeks now-nothing that's really regular though. Dammit. We're moved into the new house (with just a few minor things left to take care of) and I'm full term-so I am pretty comfortable with him coming at anytime. My doctor is fine with it too. I'm already dilating and effaced so progress is being made. Tomorrow is Easter...so that would be cool. I shouldn't complain because I fought hard to get to this point. But oh my god. I'm so miserable. I can't sleep. I don't feel good 90% of the time. I'm tired. I can barely roll over/walk/stand up anymore. I don't want to do this for 3 more weeks....and I'm scared to get induced. Induction leads to c-section so often....I just don't want that. I have a nice, wide pelvis-perfect for pushing a baby out of.

I'm gonna go take a nice, long, hot, shower. I love our shower in our master bath. It's amazing. There's a seat in it and everything. Good for me since standing up sucks anymore. Here's some nursery pics. All I have left to do is put up blinds and finish his nursery letters and hang them up.

Okay-off I go. It would be sweet if my next post I was like "yay-here he is!" :)

I'm so tired......

I've had a busy week. We closed on our house on Tuesday and then immediately started moving in. We have gotten a lot done in the past few days. We still have a ways to go but at least progress is being made.

Had my 36 week appointment-I'm 1 cm and 70% effaced. My doctor also said that I don't have to check my blood sugar everyday anymore. It's been so good and so under control that they think that *MAYBE* I don't really have GD. They still have to treat me as if I do, but for now, everything is still good and really under control, so I can stick my finger every other day. We also had an ultrasound on Friday. Because of having GD, they do another ultrasound at this point to check weight and stuff. I couldn't get in to the good ultrasound tech at my OB's office, so I had to go to the imaging center. Boo. They are all business there-and my doctor told me it would be like that. I'm lucky they even told me how much he weighs. She wouldn't answer any of my questions, I barely got to see the screen (at the OB's office they have a HUGE tv on the wall so you can watch too), they didn't give us any pictures...nothing. She showed us his face for like 20 seconds-and we could barely see anything because he kept covering it with his hands. They estimate him at 6.2 pounds right now-and I'm 36 weeks and a couple days. That estimate can mean nothing though. I've heard it can be off by 1-2 pounds! Whatever.

I'm at the point where I'm definitely having some real contractions sometimes. I really would like to make it to 38 weeks because that will give me peace of mind and it gives me roughly two more weeks to get everything done around here. Like I said, we've made A TON of progress but we do still have a few things to do. We have almost everything at the new house except for a few small things that are still at the rental. I want to finish getting everything set up here, get everything out of the rental and get it cleaned, finish transferring over our bills and utilities...you know, that kind of stuff. We're so close. It would just make me happy as a clam to know that everything I wanted to get done is done and I am just at home relaxing with no big projects hanging over my head and boom! It's labor time! That would be amazing.

In other news-I have some insurance crap to try to take care of. I'm getting charged what I think is a ridiculous amount of money for going to the regional diabetes center to get my GD stuff set up. I think it was coded wrong. And I also found out that what I was told by my insurance company at the end of last year about how I only have a $350 co-pay for giving birth and then everything else is covered at 100% is bullshit. Well, it wasn't then-but it changed and now there are deductibles and percentages, etc. and it will cost me over $1200. WTF? I got pregnant last year-so I should fall under that coverage. I'm still looking into this because I think it's stupid.

Well-I'm so tired I'm about to pass out, so that's all for now. I will update again soon and hopefully I'll have some house pictures and stuff.