And in other news....

I'm pissed at my husband. He has been acting like a child lately and I'm getting sick of it.

I can't even have a proper argument with him because he just fires stuff right back at me-mean things that have nothing to do with why we're fighting. Granted, our fight started over something stupid, but it's an ongoing issue.

I don't care how many more hours he works than me, or how much more money  he makes than me, it doesn't make it solely my responsibility to do EVERYTHING around the house. He bitches if the house isn't clean enough, but then all he does is leave shit everywhere. And forget asking him to help with anything, because he'll just say, "I do what I want. I'll do it, but I'll do it when I want to do it.." which means never. Just a few examples: Sunday, we went to a cookout. He brought a cooler. It is now Thursday and the cooler was sitting in our kitchen, with nasty stagnant water in it, until about an hour ago. Is he the one who dumped it out and put it away? Nope. I did. Even though I specifically asked him to do it. I was sick of looking at it. Another example, I ALWAYS cook dinner AND do the dishes. Once in a while, I will ask him if he will HELP me with the dishes (like just dry them). Today I asked if he could do the few things that were in the sink and of course he said he would do it when he felt like it. About an hour ago, right before I dumped the cooler out, I did the dishes. All of them. All by myself. Last night I vacuumed the whole house and the couches, I always do all the laundry and  put it away...it's just getting old. He sits in his stupid chair and watches TV...meanwhile, he just piles his empty pop cans and water bottles and food wrappers and shit on the fireplace cuz he's too fucking lazy to get up and throw the shit away.

A few weeks ago we bought some shelves and spent a good amount of time organizing his entire closet. He was keeping it nice. Today, I went to put away some of his laundry and he has already started putting piles of clothes at the bottom of the closet again. He has a place for everything in there and he's putting shit on the floor again. I'm so FUCKING frustrated! And the worst part is that he doesn't give a shit. He thinks that this kind of stuff is my job. Oh, I also handle our budget too. He acts like we're sharing the responsibility, but in reality, all he does is work and then sit on his ass or sleep. I work, then I have to come home and cook, clean, grocery shop, take care of the pets, do laundry, do dishes, make sure our budget is on track, play bills, etc...it's NEVER ending.

He has this fucked up 1950's attitude...like the woman has a role and the man has a role and that's that. I'm so sick of that shit. Ugh...fuck this, I'm going to bed.

This is what's wrong with insurance companies and doctors....

So, today my pharmacy calls me.

The prescription for progesterone is not covered by insurance. Apparently "infertility" isn't covered. Fuck off. Oh-and it costs $462.00 for a month's supply.

WHAT THE FUCK?

I obviously can't afford that. I talked to the doctor's office and I'm calling them back tomorrow to try to figure something out. I did a little research of my own to see what I could take that was similar and I plugged all the numbers into the insurance calculator...I have options. I got this.

Cuz I love my dog!

I almost forgot!

I love the fact that I now work at a place that actually gives back to the community. Maurice's does this awesome event called Rescues and Runways.

It's in conjunction with the ASPCA. They do a runway show and the models wear Maurice's clothes and doggies that are up for adoption walk with them. When I found out about this, I thought it was absolutely awesome! I'm a huge animal person and to me, there's just nothing better than giving to an organization that's entire purpose is the well being of animals.

In addition to the runway show, you can also buy these best friend charms for your doggie!

You keep one half and you give the other half to your furry friend! I bought one today for my dog. I put the "Best Friends" part on her collar and I put the "For Life" part on my keys. She's my best buddy! These are only $5 at Maurices and it's a donation to the ASPCA. I highly recommend picking one up for the furbabies in your life!

Today was a good day :)

I'm gonna try to start adding pictures to my posts...people like pictures :)

Anyway, things are going pretty good lately. I think getting a new job was just what I needed. Work was good today. I feel like I'm learning a lot. Granted, retail isn't terribly difficult, but every store works differently and you have to learn how they do things.

I feel like I'm on track with the baby stuff too. My chart is looking pretty decent and I think I'm about to ovulate, so I need to call my doctors office tomorrow so I can get started on the progesterone. I'm very excited to start using that and to see if it works for me.

I've also been working out again. Last week, I rode a total of 40 miles on my bike! It feels good and it's fun! I ride with my friend Ann. She is great at keeping me motivated.

Only problem I have at the moment is a little bit of a headache. I think I can attribute that to lack of caffeine. No worries though. I need to run into town to pick up some stuff at Walmart, so I think I'll swing by Starbucks on my way!

Birthday Fun!

I had a great birthday! I have amazing friends and family and I'm very lucky!

My husband got me the Victoria's Secret Pink Purdue hoodie I've been wanting! He's so cute :)

He took me to lunch too. He had to go to work so for dinner, I went to my BFF's house. She made dinner for us-pork burgers with fries and corn on the cob. She got me a wonderful birthday gift too-a panini press! I'm so excited to make paninis-yum.... :)

I got tons of texts and facebook messages too-it's a little overwhelming. It's great to know that I have so many people in my life who really care about me. I also finally put in my letter of resignation at my job today. I don't have to go back...ever. And tomorrow I start my new job. I feel very blessed. On that note, I'm going to bed.

So...I just wanted to say...

I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!! 

I was starting to get scared that they wouldn't call. I start on Thursday (for Orientation). I'm so excited. The job is at my favorite clothing store-Maurices. I know to some people, it may seem like a step backwards. Going from a healthcare type job where I make $14.00 an hour to a retail job where I work part time and make a little more than half that. Well, the way I see it is this:

My husband has a great job and he makes pretty good money. I had a job that I made decent money-but I slipped into a depression and it started to effect every aspect of my life. I didn't have any energy. I was so stressed that I'm almost positive that that's what caused my two miscarriages. It was HORRIBLE. We knew that I needed to work, but that my money for the most part was just extra. So, while it's great to make the money I was making, the effect it had on my life wasn't worth it. That job sent me to therapy, caused me to take a leave of absence from work, and I'm on Prozac because of it. No job has EVER done that to me. That place is evil. This new job is a place I can work-wear my own clothes (be myself), not have to worry about all the bullshit that came with my old job. I feel relieved.

I'm still on leave at my old job...now I have to call or email them and tell them I'm not coming back. I don't really know the best way to do that. Especially since I still have shit in my locker at work. I don't think it's anything I can't live without....but I don't know. More to come on that. For now-I'm excited and I'm going to enjoy this. Tomorrow is my birthday-and I can enjoy it!!!

Punk kids and waiting around....

So-imagine my surprise this morning when I get in my car and my glove box is open and stuff is strewn about the inside of my car. And ALL of my cd's are missing. Yeah.

I live in a small town. A VERY small, seemingly safe, town. Did I lock my car that was in MY driveway? No. I never do. Am I mad at myself for not locking my car? No. I'm not. Because the other 5+ cars that got broken into last night actually got BROKEN INTO. So had I locked my car, I would not only be missing my super awesome cd collection, but I would also have to be buying a new window-which I can't afford right now.

I'm pissed. Oh well. What can I do about it? I'm mostly just mad that they probably took my cds, didn't actually want any of them, so they dumped them off somewhere.

In other news...got my errands done today. Went to the doctor, that was fine. Dropped off my tax check at the IRS place-whatever-that was fine.

I talked to the place that I'm trying to get hired at. The manager told me she did talk to the district manager and the only thing they were concerned about was that I originally wanted full time and this job was part time. I explained to her that part time was indeed fine-I only said full time because I had full time availability. The manager already knew that because she and I talked about it in my interview last week. So she said she needed to call him back and tell him that because he has final say. She said she would talk to him and call me back either today by the end of this afternoon, or first thing tomorrow morning. UGH. I hate waiting....did I mention that? I'm impatient and I'm trying to call my current job and quit-so I would like to know that I have a job to go to. So now I'm on edge.

I'm on edge because I NEED to quit my job like-this week...which means I need to be starting a new job. I guess it's out of my hands now. Honestly, if I don't get this, then I'm quitting my job anyway and I'm gonna start pounding pavement. I can get a job. But THIS job that I'm waiting to hear about is the one I really want. I've come this far. I've submitted an online and a paper application, I went in to fill out a questionaire thing, I've had TWO interviews, and they've called ALL of my references. I've worked at way higher profile places that never did that. They better be hiring me.

Okay-I need to go throw up or something. I've made myself nervous. Oh please-let this work out for me.

The Week Ahead

I think this coming week should go pretty well.

Being off work has been pretty awesome-but I'm looking forward to getting back into a routine of some sort. Here's how the week looks:

Monday:
-Doctors appointment at 11:15 (get more Prozac...hehe)
-Drop of tax check
-HOPEFULLY be getting a phone call from my *new* employer (I'm not gonna jinx this by saying who it is...)
-HOPEFULLY call my current employer (that I've been taking a month off from) to tell them I'm not coming back!

Tuesday:
-Work on school assignments
-Vacuum, straighten up a bit
-Bike ride (...nothing like riding ten miles on a bike in 90 degree weather to break a sweat!)

Wednesday:
-Happy Birthday to ME!!
-Birthday lunch with the hubs
-Birthday dinner at my friend Sarah's house

Thursday:
-HOPEFULLY be starting my new job :)

That's as far as I'm gonna go....cuz I don't know what the rest of the week holds. Here's what I hope it holds though: Ovulating....or at least getting a positive OPK so that I can call my doctor's office and get going on the progesterone supplements.

This is gonna be a good week :)